Destiny !

The more you appreciate something, the more you want it, the less you will have it, until it is lost forever !

I guess that is my destiny, to lose all that I love, and it tires me, I feel so exhausted !

Yule Update !

Hello there !

I know I haven't wrote nothing here for a while, and I'm sorry for that, but it is for a good reason,.
I have been a little busy doing some graphic work and I'm back on doing some music, which as everyone knows its probably two of the things I like to do the most, and speaking of things I like, I have been dating this beautifully gorgeous girl, I must say I'm pretty much in love, there is this constant feeling that we have met before, we just talk and talk for hours and she is a very talented artist.
For the first time I have agreed to be photographed , she can get me really comfortable in front of a camera, and that my friends and followers is a first, also I enjoy seeing her working, is it seeing her doing make up on someone, doing clothes, drawing or taking pictures, she is a very passionate person on what she does and I love her smile !

I have been eating vegetarian food too, and I must say its quite good, I wont become vegetarian, but my food choices have grown a lot, and its healthier too.

What more can I say, its Yule/X-mas, not the best time for me due to some people that died around this time some years ago, I miss them and Ill always keep them on my heart !

Oh, I'll probably start doing some airsoft (google it people), and Ill be doing some courses this next year amongst them a Design one, I'm anxious for that.

So, to all my friends thank you for being always with me, cheering me up and overall existing on my life, I wish you all the best in this festive occasion, may the gods give you all that you wish in your life's !

P.S. I got a cat, and she is growing on me, mainly because my Girlfriend has 3 and she got me to start liking them, just a bit , not too much :P

What rests beneath !

" I am afraid, not of losing my soul, but of losing my heart, what would be of me without it?
How would I live if I was not to hear you sweet voice everyday and to feel your soft skin against mine ?
I do not know, and to think of it scares me, it makes me shiver through the very fabric of which I am made, for deep down, behind this weary face, inside this scarred body in the middle of this darkness that made me a Demigod, for you, my heart, I am nothing more than a man ." - What rests beneath, the Demigod chronicles!

Blue veins !

I have been quite away from here lately, but with a good reason !

My heart has been taken by surprise, and it has been a motivating experience, not so much on the writing but more on the leather working/crafts part, and I've been enjoying this a lot.

It is a weird thing when there is this persistent feeling that you and the other person have met before and have been together for longer than you really are, but I love it, and her smile is the most beautiful smile ever and it melts my heart and warms my soul.

I am a happy man !

P.S. sorry for the short update, its hard to write when I have these feelings inside, but deal with it :P

Demons !

" At the turn of the moon, Olaf the king, asked the Demigod, what is it that he eats, for he has never seen him eat food, his answer stroke both fear and hope in the heart of the king !

- Mortal friend, I feed on demons, so give me yours so I can feast tonight, and you can rejoice knowing that my hunger makes you a better man and this world a more hopeful on !

- Why hopeful ? - The king asked.

- Because only fearless people can change the course of this world !

- But shouldn't I deal with my own demons?

- Little man- the Demigod said while rising from his throne and reaching for the king's head - let me tell you a secret, never deny help, for demons can be harder than you expect, I should know because I have my own, and the battle inside never gets easier, then again, - He said while laughing- I am not a mortal man ! " - Demons, food of the Immortal soul !

I'll never know !

And here we go again, why are people afraid of being happy ? Why do they run?

Then again I do have the tendency to get drunk as fuck, so its a fuck it kind of situation I guess.
But here is the thing, running only delays the problems to the one that runs away, and to the other person, the void will kill him, its as simple as that, and words, again words, said and not followed, why?

I guess I will never know, too many whys to even understand , guess ill try to delay the booze as much as I can, but the need to get numb just crawls up me, and this little voice in my head just says "go for it, it will help", even though I know it won't !

Onwards in life !

A vida tem uma coisa certa e essa é a morte, ela por ai anda a seu tempo e a todos nos leva.

Numa semana em que esta senhora me leva gente do meu sangue por duas vezes a vida lá se encarregou de me dar algo em troca. É bom saber que posso sempre contar com os amigos seja para o que for, mas acima de tudo para animar que é isso que se precisa enquanto cá se está .

Outra coisa se precisa também e tal coisa tem tendência a aparecer nos momentos menos esperados, mas fico feliz que assim seja, aquece-me o coração e a alma saber que nem tudo está perdido neste mundo e sente-se isso em cada palavra dita, em cada olhar trocado, nos braços que se prendem á minha volta, na mão que me agarra a minha quase como que á procura de resguardo desta vida e acima de tudo no coração que se sente a bater contra o meu como se não houvesse amanhã !

E assim é, rodeado de sons estranhos que duas almas se encontram !