Heartbbeats

Wouldn't it be great if loneliness left me alone, there is no heartbeat for it to silence anymore !

So this is life !

Some things just became so weird, here I am having such a nice day, and then pufff, down you go, happiness has become a frail thing. These last two years kind of destroyed me, “kind of” is an euphemism, they actually destroyed me. It has become increasingly hard to keep an upbeat conversation or make  that fake smile you put on so people wont ask  anything.

Depression knocks on my door again, and I am tired of being there to open the door.