Rain, News and Demigods !

The rain, it hypnotizes me, countless minutes pass by and the only thing I can do is to stare at her falling down.
But the thing I miss most is to see it fall in the sea, there is this beach where I went as a kid and where I go at least once a year, and it just makes my mind go places, the simple act of sitting there and watching the rain fall in that place, and I never understood why, I reckon I never will.
How strange is this world where we cannot understand these things and yet they seem to overpower our own will, then again, maybe this is our own will and we just don't know it.

And now the news, The Demigod Chronicles writings are ongoing and it seems that Ill be able to make more sense of these loose words and compress them in one continuous readable project, or at least enough for 1 or 2 small stories for the time being, the only thing I need is someone to draw it , a harder task than I anticipated, but good things come when we least expect !

In a week or so I'll be getting new ink on my body, and there will be photos then, but there will be a part of the Hávamal in it and is one of two tattoos with these old words, I am quite anxious, mainly because every tattoo I have made has meaning and this one will have one of the strongest meanings in my life !
I have also started doing some leather work again, and it will be sold this time, so get your wallets ready, everything is handmade and unique.

I would like to thank my friends, mainly for their support on these not so good times for me, and for the new people for making me see that there are some good people out there including some that actually understand all that I write, and maybe, just maybe, the world might survive !

P.S. I'll be making some stone work too,  looking forward for its appreciation !


"-This strange fog has surrounded us sir, what are we to do ?
-Raise the bridge, close the gates and stay strong for doom is upon us.
- Should we not call him sir? Will he not come to our aid?
-Go to the walls, and look around, he is already here, he is the fog, and help has he sees it, most of the times come in dark manners!" The Fall of Vargstad

Our Blood !

Going back to my roots means to read,to remember and to act in order to regain my centre.

A Man often finds himself within himself, it is in our blood !


"Once he has won wealth enough,
A man should not crave for more:
What he saves for friends, foes may take;
Hopes are often liars. With presents friends should please each other,
With a shield or a costly coat:
Mutual giving makes for friendship,
So long as life goes well,
A man should be loyal through life to friends,
To them and to friends of theirs,
But never shall a man make offer
Of friendship to his foes. A man should be loyal through life to friends,
And return gift for gift,
Laugh when they laugh,
but with lies repay
A false foe who lies. If you find a friend you fully trust
And wish for his good-will,
exchange thoughts,
exchange gifts,
Go often to his house. If you deal with another you don't trust
But wish for his good-will,
Be fair in speech but false in thought
And give him lie for lie. Even with one you ill-trust
And doubt what he means to do,
False words with fair smiles
May get you the gift you desire. "
- Havamal

One

"You can take off one leg and still walk, you can take out one arm and still write, but take off your head or your heart and you are dead !

Curiously both of them are not often broken physically, but in the worst way possible, and mostly with words or bad decisions .

One, that is all that you need to end it all ! " - The Deconstruction of Mankind and Decaying of Souls

Paper, it lives forever !

Where to start...oh well, I'm 30 years old now and things are still weird, the day was a good one, I guess it always is when you are with good company and a good honest talk is in the air, one of the best Bday's in quite some time!

I'll be joining up more friends soon, after all, 30 is a good age to remember with the good people that are in your life.

 I've started to write things in paper again, after years of not doing so, mainly future songs, hope to get them out of paper and in to instruments as soon as possible, maybe its time to get the old writings too!

Now you might ask why did I stopped writing in paper,  if you do ask then its because you don't know paper, paper is alive in its own very peculiar way,  at the very end it holds on to the feeling you gave it when you wrote on it until the end of days, and I guess I didn't want some things to last so much !

 " A man is dead when silence is the only remembrance of all he did in life ! " - The Demigod

Fate and Paths !

Alcohol or cancer, one of these two will kill me one day !

Cancer has been in the family for generations, and is the major death cause for us, the probability of me having it is high, even so if I am to have it, I think I would not want treatment, a man's time is over when it is over.
And to be true, there is almost no purpose for me to exist, I am not saying this because of recent events, ok, maybe I am a little on the half drunk side, still I feel as if there is no purpose to me or my kind of person nowadays, there is a growing feeling inside me of being outdated and not being able to keep pace with something 's and some people.

Now, for the concerned reader, I am not thinking on the terminus of my life, I made a promise on that !

As for the alcohol, old habits are hard to die, mostly due to the way I see life or certain aspects of it, and because for me, it triggers some parts of my person that allow me to remember somethings and forget others, specially whisky.
Yes, whisky takes me places, not the best ones for most people, but even so not being the best of places, they in a strange way feel like home, a feeling that might in the long run be my end, although it would be a good thing in my perception to end this journey feeling at home.

This is not a sad entry on this blog, I see it more as a realistic one, probably more will come as things inside me change to whatever path they must change !


" War and love are never over my friend, both will torment us and leave scars that will last until the end of our days, the only thing one can do is to repair their armour after each battle, and enter the next one more relentless then before " - King Olaf on The Path of Souls

Why ?

Why?
Why not?
 Old dreams, old thoughts , new mazes, action, reaction, all seems so nonsense , such a big lack of focus on my mind right now !

The only certain thing is that the bottle still has scotch in it and the music keeps on playing, and this one thought keeps haunting my mind, the why, why wasn't I the one dying years ago, why did it had to be you ?
You were stronger, had more knowledge you were so much more of what I will never be.

Why me brother ? I would give my soul to trade with you right now.

I know you always liked to test me, and deep down I know that this is that ultimate test, to live, but you know me, I never liked to fight what I could not see, I feel out of purpose, with no objective, this is very frustrating and I feel that I am reaching my limit .

You once said to me that a man that fights for nothing is as good as dead, so you tell me, what is it worth fighting for nowadays? Because I see no more reason to fight for nothing !

I wished time could go back and you could be here to answer me !

The long way home !

And when everything else fails, and people lose the ability to see themselves, others and the effects of their actions, the only path to follow then is the one that leads to your roots, for they will always be there, binding you to who you are, who you were and who you will become !

It is a long way home, specially when that home is in our heart and our blood !